Trusting you was my failure!!!!!!!

 I grew up trusting everything taught by elders, especially my parents because I believed in them. I put all my trust to them and that they won’t let me down. The scenario which says “love them all and trust no one” did not work to me those days. As I grew up I realize that my parents were sometimes not fulfill they promises but at that time I was easy forget.  When you are young you don’t get hurt easily.  When you cry for something your mother will promise to buy it tomorrow, but bear in mind that by tomorrow you will forgot that especially when they bring nice children stuff.

I trust a lot of people, but they disappoint me. I trust my friend whom I thought was my soul sisters, but they all let me down. I even trust and help those crying for help, but they bad mouth me. Then I realize that the scenario “love them all but trust no one” is true. But by trusting someone you can make a good friendship. By trusting someone you can share your secrets, a shoulder to cry on. By trusting someone you can work together to achieve your goals.

Trusting you as my best friend, my soul sister and my everything was my failure. I never knew that by this time you will let me down. I realize that trusting people by all your heart you are hurting yourself. But trusting in GOD you will have everything no harm,   only leave in peace and have long life.

Darkness during the day

It may sound weird when you hear someone saying the day turn into a night. But the darkness can come during the day in your life when you hear unexpected news. When you hear something that will make you dull. The truth sometimes can turn your day to darkness, especial when you hear that someone close to your heart done something terrible. When someone close to you will no longer leave in this earth.

I wish if you can come back into my life. Hold your hand once again. I wish I could tell God to bring you again in this world. My life is hard without your presence, home is cold without your love dad. It’s been nineteen years now but it’s like you left me yesterday. The darkness comes in the morning to me when I hear that she also left me. You leave me without saying any word, you left me without saying goodbye. How can I leave in this world without you guys? How can you do this to me?  

Fortunately you introduce the word of God to me. You give me stick to hold on to which is a word of God. But sometimes the world seems so small without you. Death be not proud.

May your soul rest in peace Dad and Aunt.

LET THOUGH WILL BE DONE!!!!!!!

Sometimes we underestimate them, we give them hate names, we don’t appreciate them and I was also one of those people. We expect good things to come out of the mouth of those respected people whom sometimes we bow before them.  I used to hate him because of his behavior, I used to be afraid of using train on Sundays because of him.

Let the will of God be done. The person I usually called baggy, who always insult and force people in the train to give him money was the one who preach the will of God. When he entered the train I was afraid thought of changing the coach, he hardly know that women are afraid of him. He started by greetings and said “people don’t be afraid of me today, I am here by the grace of God to preach and testify his grace.”

I got confused, it was like a dream. I even blame myself of hate names I used to call him. He wore dirty stinky torn clothes, bare footed. He pleads and encourages us to pray for those who had abandoned their home and families, those who sleep under bridge to seek and go back to their families, pray for those in hospitals, and pray to conquer the hated sickness called HIV and also to seek for the kingdom of GOD. There way he pray, preaches defines that he knows the word of GOD.

We tend to judge people, but we don’t know how GOD looks like. He pleads us to give him a chance to preach to us.

                                    He said

“I AM NOT PERFECT, I AM NOT WELL KNOWN, I DON’T HAVE        ANYTHING THAT HAVE VALUE IN THIS WORLD, BUT WHAT I KNOW IS THAT MY GOD HAS NEVER FAIL ME YET”

Who am I

I am Lulama Venu born and breed in East London. I believe in women empowerment. I am enthusiastic, energetic, and curious when I don't understand something.  I am intelligent woman who like working as a team. I manage to deal with difficulties and also a problem solver since I have mentoring skills. I have a diploma in Public Management and decide to explore and do my BTech in Public Relations Management. I am shy and also like communicating to other people especial with different cultures.

I am a hard worker and also passionate about life. I acknowledge people's view and respect them. I am confident of my self and don't mind criticism from other people, instead I put them into consideration because they can help me to improve my confidence because I know who am I. I like watching television, movies, reading magazines, and novels.

I don't give up easy, I take time and consider my mistakes so that I can start where I left and erase my mistakes. I am who I am today and who will be tomorrow. I am proud of myself and I am who am I today because I listen to my elders but take my own decisions.

In five years time I see myself as a successful business woman who will own a Public Relations company. I believe that dreams can come true, and being a professional business woman is my dream.  

Metrorail is it “poor” / “pure” or it’s about race?

I wonna know the code of conduct of Metrorail. The principles they draw. The training of service delivery they give their employees. Metrorail is the big company with poor service delivery. The employees especially the ticket tellers do not know how to communicate with customers. Today I saw a scene by Metrorail tellers who chased away an old woman because she brings R6.50 with two five cents. They refuse to sell her a ticket saying they do not take five cents. Granny begs for ten cent in every person pass by. Then come a white man with a bag of five cents buying two tickets, he receives his tickets. They even thank him hoping to see him again. I never had that proper service there.

Granny  receive one rand from the man of God, when she went there to buy ticket the lady who said earlier they don’t take five cents, give granny five cents change and said take it or leave it. When granny refuses to take it she shouts for the next customer. Is that the principles of Metrorail?

Metrorail should give their employees more customer service training, communication skills and professionalism.

How do you step from the top of a 100-foot pole?

When I realize that I had no one on my side, no one to give my heart, my love to. When the days turn dark during the day in my life, I realize that relationships are not good for me. I realize that no one is perfect in life. I used to date a man whom I thought was my future husband but at some point I realize that man are evil. They can kill and stay silent, they can promise and promise at the end of the day how many women’s they promise the entire world. They can promise to give you all they have. If you can count how many mans out there  who are perfect you will find out that ninety nine percent of them are pathetic liars. They don’t differentiate lying from the truth.

I made my mind, I tell myself that “be yourself”. I realize that I don’t need anyone to give me balance, I am on my own. I don’t need any third hand in my life because my two hands can do wonders for me. I realize that i have  to take step back and think carefully. I realize that if I leave you my heart we stay in peace all the days of my life. My heart is broken no one can mend it. I look at myself and said, I will not allow unkindness to take me down. I realize that in life you have to overcome some obstacles that may hurt. But if you believe in yourself you can make everything perfect in your life long. If you believe in yourself you will find comfort zone.

We are what we do

The things we do, the desire we make determine what we are. The things we do whether are bad or good, the least we do describe the person you are. I remember my first time using a train I was afraid to enter into it because people we pushing each other. When I was about to enter the train closed the doors, lots of trains left me behind remember I was going to write a test at 10:00 hours time in that day. The servant of God come to me and ask if it was my first time using a train, he was from night shift but he had a mercy on me wait with me for another train. The train comes and he takes my hand drag me inside. We are what we do.

The little things that we do or we don’t consider determine our personalities. By sacrificing, sharing, caring determine the kind of person you are. In South Africa it’s like everyone has the right to beg. If you can look around Cape Town corners and in malls you will always saw people with plug cards seeking for help. We sometimes ignore them because they are everywhere. What we do don’t always determine our personalities because sometimes we do something wonderful trying to help but at the end you will be one who’s going to pay for the consequences.